Go after her. Fuck, don’t sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that’s what you should do if you love someone, don’t wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come, don’t let people happen to you, don’t let me happen to you, or her, she’s not a fucking television show or tornado. There are people I might have loved had they gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at four in the morning because they need to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this and I always thought I’d be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on four days notice because you can’t just sit there and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyone’s idea of love but it is the way I can recognize it because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone is, that is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth anything, really.
— Harvey Milk (via kellymckuntqueen)
My best friend is married now. The idea of marriage always seemed like a fairy tale to me, not in the aspect of happily ever after but because it seemed like it would never come true. But now that she’s married it seems so real, so close to me, and it scares me. I don’t want to make that commitment to the wrong person. I thought I knew who I was going to marry but that changed. Distance didn’t break us up, he did. He stopped calling and texting, caught up in a different world. So what is a physical relationship without emotional and spiritual commitment? If he really loved me he would need me like I needed him. I would be vital to his existence. If I were to fly miles and miles to see his face and touch his skin again how could I forget these last months where I was only a weekly phone acquaintance? And I’m supposed to commit body and mind in a legal marriage to this man? I could never. I could never marry him. I can’t even say I’m in love anymore, how can you be in love with someone who is not feeding it to you back. Who is not spiritually taking you higher and lifting you. I know better than that.
— (via hautecocouture)